A Game Of Life ________

I miss my long hair already :(

2009-10-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

Love, syira

2009-09-23T02:35:00.003+08:00

Had a wondrful time with my 2 BFF today, Tommy n Syidah. Met Emilia with her new 'ohh so good looking' date. LOL. Went shopping for my shoot then went shisha-ing. Met Tommy's cousins from Indo n NewZealand. All so pretty/handsome and fair. If only Tommy follow his mother's genes. Grrrrrr. Overall, today was awesome!

Love,
Syira

2009-09-18T01:21:00.002+08:00

Had location recce today. Im always rushing off somewhere when im doing work with them. I can't be bothered to even sit to hear them talk. The reason is, it sucks being a minority. Baby was a sweetheart today. He picked me up from Tamp int. and sent me to boon keng. I didn't expect him to do that as i thought he wouldn't even bother to come for any of my shoots. This is the first time actually. After we were done with the location recce, we proceeded to Kaki Bukit to fix his KTM for tomorrow's trail. Bought new accessories for it. At least it looks better now :)

Headed to Simpang Bedok to meet my lovely girls for buka. Then off to Elias Mall for LEFT4DEAD. Hehe. Omg, Gamer! Im still contemplating on what to wear for Ghal's surprise party tomorrow. Hmmmm, can't wear a dress cos my legs are filled with bruises due to pracs. Hate it when that happens. Now im left with limited choices. :(

Love,
Syira

There was a time when Patience ceased to be a virtue. It was long ago.

2009-09-17T02:12:00.001+08:00

Making your mark on the world is hard. If it was easy, everybody would do it. But it's not. It takes patience, it takes commitment, and it comes with plenty of failure along the way. The real test is not whether you avoid this failure, because you won't. it's whether you let it harden or shame you into inaction, or whether you learn from it; whether you choose to persevere.

Love,
Syira

2009-09-16T00:09:00.009+08:00

Dedicated to my beloved Tommy and Syidah <3

This is for my two beloveds
like whom there can be no other.

When the first time we talked, it gave peace to me
and I very well knew you would be always there for me.

The way we began was as common as any new piece of strand.

Who knew it would turn into such a beautiful alliance,
with me being always on your reliance.

You have always made me cherish and made my pains perish.

Honestly, i salute you for this

And it's the best gift someone could give :)

Love,
Syira

A fresh look.

2009-09-12T03:28:00.000+08:00

Well, had fun with tommy today :) Its been awhile since we both last hung out. Have been really busy with school. Omg. Hate projects! :(

Love,
Syira

2009-09-08T02:25:00.000+08:00

Soooooooo Pretty.

Love Life

2009-09-04T02:20:00.002+08:00

You're always around. Thanks baby <3

2009-09-02T03:03:00.000+08:00

Blogger sucks. Cant upload pictures. And its always under construction! Grrrrr

Love,
Syira

happy birthday.

2009-08-31T00:27:00.006+08:00

Well, this was the very first time tt i cried on my bday. Haha, im a baby :):):)

2009-08-26T03:52:00.002+08:00

Im still contemplating between the Mojito Vespa and Gilera. Ohhh, how infuriating!

2009-08-25T00:38:00.002+08:00

Here are some pictures that were taken the past 2 weeks. Basically im Really lazy to upload. And 2 more days to my "oh at last im legal" birthday. LOL :)

Love,
Syira

2009-08-11T00:30:00.001+08:00

Hehe. She'll scream if she sees this picture up on my post. LOL! But i miss you la darling. And i have loads of things to tell you. OooOOooO.. Hang out soon dear friend :0

2009-08-07T01:00:00.004+08:00

Happy Legal Birthday, Sweetheart!

Miss em' girls

2009-07-28T01:02:00.003+08:00

Oh my, i forgot when all of these were taken. I found them somewhere in my folders. If im not mistaken, it was taken way back last year. Except for the last picture. I miss my girls :(

Love,
Syira

Swimming at Sammy's Crib :))

2009-07-26T01:06:00.007+08:00

Another lonely night.

2009-07-22T00:37:00.003+08:00

GAME OVER

I don't know where to go
or what i have become
nothing seems to grow
every thing's dying underneath my thumb.

I can't recognize anyone
always falling down in darkness
seems like years since i seen the sun
tormented feelings circling in my tomb.

How do i escape the hurt
when all eyes are on me
pushing me down in the dirt
just dreaming to be free.

Don't know how much more i can take
living life in vain
when everything is going to brake
nothing can take away the pain.

D'Stallions

2009-07-13T02:35:00.009+08:00

*Yawns* I just woke up from my 'power nap'. Urrgghhh, why do i have to wake up so early?! I think im gonna take mc tomorrow. Furthermore, i have not started on my assignments which the deadline is actually tomorrow. No, let me re-phrase that. "...deadline is actually LATER" OMG! Ahhh heck. My weekend was exciting.. Modelled for D'stallions. I had Syidah to accompany me for the 2 AWESOME days. Here are only 1/15 of the pictures. There's like a total of 404 pictures taken on these both days laaa OMGGG! Massive or what?! Anyway, thanks Syidah :) Love ya loads.

Love,
Syira

2009-07-09T00:29:00.003+08:00

Okay this week, i've planned not to put on any make up and let my skin rest until the day of the fashionshow. Well, this weekend, im going to model for the Suria's fashionshow and i think its frigging BULL. Omg, the rehearsals are soo damn tiring. We have to wear malay traditional costumes sponsored by some famous boutique. Well, thats what they said. I dont think they're really famous as i've never even heard of them in my whole life before. If any of you wanna come down and see, it'll be held at Tanjong Katong Complex this weekend from 2-6pm. There'll be loads of artists (thats what they claimed) and some exciting performances. So yeah :))

Love,
Syira

ol' skool

2009-07-05T16:53:00.005+08:00

MARTINNNNNN

Tommy,dear :)

Lynn and me

Mary and me

Syidah and me

I just felt like posting these ol' skool pictures. That day was a memorable day for me right until today :))

Love,
Syira

2009-07-05T03:43:00.005+08:00

There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.

Love,
Syira

2009-07-01T06:49:00.006+08:00

CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO BE MINE

2009-07-01T02:56:00.009+08:00

Hey baby,

Nothing can describe, the way I feel for you
Your love is warm and precious
Your heart so pure and true
Heavens angels brought me
To knock upon your door
To give you all my love
To keep you wanting more
The special bond we share, will guide us on our way
To a perfect life were dreams come true
What more can I really say
We were brought together, never will we part
Your my special gift
Your my shining star
I'll love you unconditionally
With all my heart and soul
I'll never break your spirit
I'll always keep you whole

Love,
Tommy

2009-06-30T03:04:00.004+08:00

IM STILL SEVENTEEN :)
And im happy.

Updated :)

2009-06-29T20:53:00.003+08:00

Tommy's in the girl robot. Sooo cute :)

My weekend was a blast! Here are some pictures that were taken :)

Love,
Syira

2009-06-23T01:41:00.001+08:00

I believe love is primarily a choice and only sometimes a feeling.
If you want to feel love, choose to love and be patient.
But if you choose to chuck it aside and forget about it, its your destiny.

Love,
Syira

Serve the country.

2009-06-17T03:52:00.000+08:00

Bye bye Jarell.

alone

2009-06-05T04:24:00.002+08:00

A lonely heart is not something new
A lonely heart contains only blues

Weekend

2009-05-31T02:54:00.007+08:00

My weekend was alright. Its 3am and I'm kinda lazy to post so I'll just post some pictures of my weekend.

Went swimming with Tommy at his crib. Comments: Stress relieving

Then Friday went to kallang stadium to watch Tommy, Kye and Aaron's match. Tommy was so excited playing there as he gets to play soccer on the field where Man U played before. Haha, Then after that we went to slack at some coffeeshop to celebrate nick's birthday. Had no plans after that so we headed to Zouk. Got in free as we were in the guestlist. Well, it was boring as the DJ sucks big time. But it was FRIGGING packed so we stayed in for only an hour.

Our super penat face

Tommy's high face. LOL. So damn hilarious

2009-05-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

Im trying hard to be the OLD Syira. Its hard, but im trying.

Nervosa

2009-05-22T00:47:00.003+08:00

You're starting to get on my nerves. Sheeshhh. Stop trying to talk to me, it doesnt make me change my perspective of you. My goodness, girl.

2009-05-20T02:09:00.003+08:00

My goodd. Hectic week for me. Anyway, thank god fashion show went well. Loads of praises from lectures and mates. Its a burden off my chest. Well, eventhough its a last minute thingy and went NOT so smoothly, but it looks good. Have nothing much to say. Nights :)

Love,
Syira

2009-05-12T01:10:00.003+08:00

INDONESIA

THE GIRLS THAT MADE MY DAY.

Well, here goes. On friday, we had our recording.. AGAIN. It'll never end balls. So damn tiring. Voguelicious was Vogue. Hahaha, they're awesome. Everyone cant take their eyes off them. The next pussycat dolls. You guys should really check them out. Well, Joel let me off early as i had a flight to catch.

At the airport, mummy and i was trying to find burger king only to find out that we had to check in first as the burger king was inside. Haha, it was hilarious. Kinda cute though. We were talking about marriage, bike, travel. And yayyyy! Finally i got a green light to get myself a vespaaa :))

In indo, it was total madness. Everyone were rushing here and there to prepare the stuff for the wedding. It went well. My uncle, a cameraman for Suria, he was there as well. Instead of taking pictures of my cousin who was getting married, he took loads of pictures of me. Asking me to pose here and there and bla bla bla. It was tiring, embarrassing but fun. Hearts them all. And oh, lastly, shopping was MADNESS!

Love,
Syira

2009-05-07T00:55:00.002+08:00

I bought myself 11 new tops in a day. Wow. Incredible. You know whats the best thing, i dont even remember why i bought them. -_-

Well, camwhored just a lil at home. HAVE to clean my room. Its in sucha mess. Tommy's on a cruise now, so yeah. Gonna miss him :)

Love,
Syira

2009-05-05T22:32:00.002+08:00

"Having people in life to always be there for you is just an option, not a requirement." says the horoscope reader. Things are changing rapidly in life. Be it economic, life or relationships. Sad to say, opening up to someone who's dear to you have become an option. Sometimes, cant be bothered. I've seen things that should not be seen. I've heard things that should not be heard. And i felt things that really hurts. But, why can't i react? Why cant i voice out my emotions? The feelings that has been buried in the cells of my heart, it cant escape.

Sense of jealousy and enviousness are around the air. Hatred seems the only solution that could satisfy a person's satisfaction. This situation is very complicated. Even i, cannot make things right. Even i could, it would very awkward, for the both of us. I lost someone very dear to me. Its not anyone's fault but mine. How could i be so negligent? I just hope that time could cure the hidden wound that created a wall between us. Loves

Love,
Syira

Happy Birthday my dearest Ath!

2009-05-03T17:44:00.007+08:00

Sheeka <3

The girls :)

Me and Sheeka surprised Ath from behind. And all along, she thought she knew what the surprise was before we came.

Happy 19th .. OPPSS, i mean 18th Ath. Finally legal. LOL. Had a great time with the girls yesterday. Hahaha, So damn hilarious. And having ayu around yesterday was one of the best days we girls had together.

Love,
Syira

2009-04-30T19:53:00.002+08:00

This crazy girl came over my place and she made me insaneeee.

the past

2009-04-30T01:21:00.002+08:00

some old skool pictures.

2009-04-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

curled the hair.

Mend my walls

2009-04-23T00:01:00.003+08:00

I often wonder, what’s the point of living, if we just die in the end.
Is there a reason to be here? Or should we just fade away instead? People say we’re here to love. I wonder if it’s true. Then why are so many lonely, so troubled and confused? It could be to help others. To be a friend to all of you and making your day a little brighter, may make mine bright too. Maybe we should live life for what it's worth. I miss you, girlfriend.

Love,
Syira

Coward.

2009-04-22T00:44:00.003+08:00

Well, the reason why i posted this picture isn't because i wanna show myself off wearing a helmet. For once, im gonna say something good about him.

This was the day when Tommy first passed his bike license and took me out on a date with his KTM. And the sweetest thing was, he didnt buy the bike because he was into dirt biking or something. It was because i fantasize to ride one of those things but couldn't afford it as the maintenance and fuel are overwhelming.

One fine day, his bike overhauled and loads of money had to be forked out and this for sure, it isn't cheap. Its easy to go merry with a bike and ride around and all. But to maintain it, it takes loads of effort. Just like a relationship. When u're happy, u're happy. For e.g: It took me nearly 2 years to maintain my relationship with him. But it took a day to destroy everything. Well, i have to say that i kinda feel at lost 'bout the whole thing and have to fabricate my way through. But life still have to move on, and hopefully, things will be okay. Maybe..

Love,
Syira

2009-04-21T00:06:00.001+08:00

I've found the perfect one. I'll get this for myself. As for my mummy, i'll let my dad decide. Hehe :)

Love,
Syira

hi good morning

2009-04-20T12:56:00.003+08:00

My good morning face. Hahaa, just felt like posting a stupid picture of myself. Im bored too death man. Blame myself for being lazy to drag myself to the bathroom to bathe and get ready for school. Getting mummy a marc jacob bag for mothers day! And maybe an excuse to buy myself one tooo :) Hehehe. Daddddddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

He's kinda pissed actually as i've been squandering his 'kaachhinng kaachhinng' like water. Recently, got myself a bebe lock heart handbag, bebe pullover, DMK heels, samuel and kevin denim top and some stuffs which i forgot. LOL. Im sooooo happy <333

Love,
Syira

The brighter side of life

2009-04-20T10:42:00.001+08:00

While i was in a daze, there was this random girl who came up to me and started a conversation. Well, i was pretty shocked at that point of time because we've never spoken to each other before.

She said, "Whats wrong? You look troubled. Is anything the matter? Do you wanna share?"
I replied, "Which question should i answer first? Anyway, im Syira"
Curiously, she dint tell me her name. Well, that's something new.
The weird thing is, i poured my woes to her as if we've known each other like forever.
She told me, "Why don't you just look at the brighter side of life? You may, or may not win this battle. But just remember, there are still more battles ahead of you. In life, there's happy and sad moments. Why do you choose to remember the sad ones? Why can't you let things go and move on with life?"

Obliterate all of my senses, insanity is my excuse. Thanks for waking me up. Eerie, almost ghostly, a voice invaded my mind. Then, i realised how stupid i could be. I choose to hold on to a time where actually nothing mattered. And i choose to succumb to despair. I thought that the time was ripe and i was ready to go. Since i was young, i was pandered to my every need. Who are the culprits? Who are the guilty ones? Mum and Dad? This is disenchanting.

Love,
Syira

School

2009-04-16T19:26:00.002+08:00

Tommy broke the fire extinguisher glass in front of class and his blood dripped on the whole of the 5th level floor. Kinda disgusting as loads of blood was oozing out from his hands. Errrrrrgghh.

Well, finally, another burden off my chest. Assignment 3 has finally reached the deadline. Half of the class did not complete the assignment but handed it up anyways. LOL. Gonna meet ath and the rest in awhile and off to simpang to meet jarell and maxin.

Love,
Syira

i was such a fool

2009-04-15T02:57:00.003+08:00

Is love really a gift worth fighting for, or is that merely what we want to think? What if it turns out he was with some whore, and the relationship begins to sink? His gift of love is now a Trojan Horse. Attacking from the deep depths of my heart. Betrayal, like the flu, must run its course. Sinking in like the poison of a dart. But sometimes, love goes beyond extent till hurt and harm are being produced by someone.

But somehow its worth taking a slight chance. To hear those three simple words “I love you”. And feel his arms and hands around you. And when times get tough, he’s there to help you through. Would you risk bad for good? For me it’s an easy choice..I would :)

Being distant from someone is nothing compared to being distant from someone when it comes to the matter of the heart. Or shall i put it, "so near yet so far" I just wish that someday, i could turn back time and stop him from doing things which are making us unhappy right now. Why? Why must karma hit me back so hard? This fragile heart tears every night, thinking pessimistically about the outcome. Why does this heart feel so hurt over the slightest setback of this relationship? Words cant describe how low im feeling right now. Today, the rain slithered down my windows, encouraging a creeping melancholia.

I cant speak to him right now. I just cant. Too many things are hidden in my heart. I dont want sympathy. I dont want him to think that im doing this to get his attention. All i need is just him to be by my side. Everyday, i eclipse my sadness with a smile. But i dont wanna be pretentious over my feelings. I just wana be the happy 'me' that i used to be. But why is it so hard?

Love,
Syira

2009-04-14T00:54:00.001+08:00

I could still remember the days.

Love,
Syira

2009-04-01T05:10:00.001+08:00

i miss my classmates.

2009-03-30T05:18:00.000+08:00

I've got loads to learn.

2009-03-29T03:00:00.002+08:00

Haha, im bored. Im just laughing my ass off taking pictures of myself using the mirror effect. So hilarious. Loves.

Love,
Syira

bang bang

2009-03-28T03:50:00.004+08:00

im happy today. period.

new life, new me

2009-03-27T17:15:00.002+08:00

somehow, do i look diff?

2009-03-22T01:34:00.002+08:00

If i could find out how, to make you listen now because im starving for u here, with my undying love. Im reaching for your hands and sweating all my tears. I lay here all alone, really starving for your presence. But whats the point. Im leaving and goodbyes are meant for lonely people in the rain. But no matter where i go, its pouring all the same. And i promise you, by the time we get through, the world wont ever be the same. Why do we like to hurt so much? And you convinced yourself that its not the reason. And when it rains, you'll always find an escape. How come i never saw it coming? I need an ending. So why cant you stay just long enough to explain? And i'll re-write the story of you and me.

2009-03-21T23:01:00.004+08:00

Well, you were having fun on ur birthday, so was i. Im happy that you were avoiding me too.

Love,
Syira

happy birthday.

2009-03-21T04:06:00.002+08:00

you just piss me off.

past

2009-03-19T12:02:00.000+08:00

i miss happy times with them girls :) love ya ladies.

ill be away

2009-03-18T01:30:00.003+08:00

im running..
away from everyone.

im sorry.

mortified

2009-03-17T04:50:00.001+08:00

I can't explain myself.

2009-03-16T05:37:00.002+08:00

I've never felt so scared. I've never felt so psychotic. I've never felt so depressed. I've never felt so alone. Just now was a trauma, honestly. Instead of having a pragmatic approach, i was being imprudent. What have i done?

Runnin'

2009-03-16T02:41:00.000+08:00

IM RUNNING FOR MY F'UKING LIFE!

2009-03-13T00:28:00.002+08:00

dont worry, when i die, i wont blame u. just you hold on to words when u said u dont care.

New beginning

2009-03-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

Today was hell.

Oh well, i have been contemplating of what to do with my hair. Whether to just leave it the way it is or to cut it short. I guess i'll just cut it short to give myself a fresh look. I can't wait to go to Jakarta next week. Woohoo! I heard the stuffs there are CRAZY! Gonna get some stuffs for our upcoming fashion show. Baby's birthday is coming soon and i really dont know what to get for him. I guess the last resort would be that i'll just treat him to dinner with his friends and just get him a wakeboard. I need ideas!!

Love,
Syira

2009-03-09T03:25:00.000+08:00

Im still here.

2009-03-06T02:59:00.001+08:00

The key to solving a problem today is to organize your approach -- and if you mess up along the way, don't just pull apart everything and start over again. There are small adjustments you can make that will solve the problem. But you will need plenty of patience in order to identify these adjustments -- and even more patience to deal with them! This is a great learning opportunity, so don't let yourself get frustrated. You need to take a break if things get too tense. Give yourself time to cool off.

Love,
Syira

2009-02-25T03:41:00.003+08:00

I love you so much, baby <3

Candle lights.

2009-02-20T01:26:00.005+08:00

Hehe. I really love this picture alot :)

My Girlfriend since the age of 6.

Im looking in the mirror and watching my image reflecting back at me.
My life is telling me that I have received what I perceived with my reflection.

Had i have loved you, our life would be in unison. And even if i had took time out with you, you would not have any suspicions of my motives and be secure.
Had I have love you... Well, i actually do.

Now I understand my reflection in looking in the mirror. It shows me who I really am. Reflection of life. Its just about commitments.

Love,
Syira

V-Day

2009-02-16T01:39:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentines to everyone! All i know is that i got fuckin drunk.

Happy friday the 13th!

2009-02-13T00:30:00.002+08:00

Mama bought me a barbie doll alarm clock. OMG! Out of all things why barbie doll siaaaaa. Its soo lame. Anyway, chucked it one corner at the end of the day. These few days, i've been like soooo broke. Its been awhile since i last shopped. Haiz, no income. What to do. Life has to go on.

Urghhh my room's in a mess. OMFG. There's still some unpacked shopping bags lying around my room. I've became disorganized ever since i treated my home like a hotel. Well not literally. Gonna clean up my room soon :)

Love,
Syira

So what is it about men that we dont understand?

2009-02-09T01:49:00.004+08:00

Just because your girlfriends told you it wasn't your fault, or that he was just "a jerk", doesn't mean that they understood the problem (or that they understand men at all, for that matter).

Most women don't "get" men. Your friends who try to comfort and encourage you have good intentions. They're just trying to make you feel better.

But they're also accidentally making the situation WORSE.
You were trying to get CLOSER to him, and somehow he kept moving farther AWAY from you.

I'm guessing that when one of these things happened, your girlfriends said things like:

"He's just a jerk, forget about him".

Or they said: "He doesn't see the mistake he's making or what he'll be missing". But he never seemed to see these mistakes... or even miss you.

And the worst part of all: You kept thinking about it.

Love,
Syira

Long Lasting

2009-02-08T00:33:00.003+08:00

I wonder why i feel so skeptic each time people asks me about V day. Why does it seems like im a loner now? I dont wish to turn to anyone right now. I tend to isolate myself nowadays. Is it the side effects of that person that has gone missing? I always question myself. Should i? Or Should i not? Am i not in a state of mind? I feel soo miserable. I thought that i could be a happier and a better person once it is all over. But why do i feel soo downhearted? Did i make the wrong decision?

If i were rejected, it'll be a whole different thing. But the thing is, i really wanted this. Usually, the person who asks for the breakup should be happy that its all over no matter what and wont have second thoughts unless the guy/girl cheats on them. But i question myself, what exactly did happen that caused our breakup?

Love,
Syira

2009-02-06T03:28:00.006+08:00

Hola people! Have been really busy lately. Anyway, i miss Tommy soooooo much! Haiz. Made a song for us but i guess i'll just post it next time. After completing the floor plan, skyped with Sammy. LOL. I was realllly bored. Took some pictures of myself on my webcam. Anyway, daddy bought mio tv cable and there's alot of interesting channels and shows. I think its way better than starhub. LOL. So many great movies. No need to waste my time finding them online. I am sooo addicted to it now. After school, i'll go home straight and start watching the shows and it can last me all the way till 6am. Aiyayyai. I have not been attending school lately. Hopefully i wont get another warning letter.

Love,
Syira

Love

2009-01-27T03:36:00.005+08:00

I know you hate me writing this kinda post on my blog. But its just hard to face you and say such words. 3 words that you always say to make my day. But i guess i wont hear it from you no more. "1 year, 3 months and 2 days. Never thought that i have to count these lovely days. Sorry for being me" you claimed. Now i understand why you didnt bother to even remember. Cos you appreciate it all these while.

But sad, why didnt i think of all those when i was with you? Why after its finally over that i finally understood the things you've done for me and started to appreciate it? Did i take you for granted? Thinking that our chapter wont ever end and that you'll never let go of me? Guess i was wrong.

Baby, you were like my lover and my bestfriend. I still remember the first time we met and the first kiss. It was so funny. It has always made me smile thinking about it. Shouldnt have let you walk out that door. I miss you.

Love,
Syira

2009-01-25T22:18:00.002+08:00

Its complicated you see,
you always disagree.
You know i lied by saying i love you not.
And you believed in so much hope.
But i was the one who let you go.

Now that we're done,
I claimed i love you not.
Im so sorry boy. Im sorry

You still call my phone cause you still want me
And i'll tell my friends you're so annoying
You'll cry and curse when you're alone
But you'll laugh and flirt when we're on the phone.

Now that we're done,
I claimed i love you not.
Im so sorry boy. Im sorry

College East

2009-01-23T01:46:00.002+08:00

School has been great these past few days. Well, there's been loads of funny acts and heavy laughters. LOL. Never have i experienced these kinda situations in school. And the toilet.... Hmmm, need not mention. Its like our smoking area. A place for us to chill out, smoke and play UNO.

Then just now, in the girls toilet, me, Mary and Isty wanted to go to our normal cubicle to smoke but it was occupied. So we suspected a group of girls smoking inside so we decided to pull a prank on them. I creeped in and said "GIRLS! ARE YOU SMOKING INSIDE?!" Then i tip toed to make it seem as if i was wearing high heels. The 3 of us chuckled as they suddenly kept quiet after bursting out of laughter. Then, Farah and the rest of the girls went in the toilet. I whispered to Farah and told her to pretend to be a teacher. She went knocking on the door repetitively and said "GIRLS! ARE YOU SMOKING INSIDE?!!" It was sooooo hilarious. Then, 2 girls came out from the cubicle. All of us burst out in laughter! One of them went "Sialaa! Aku pikir betul2 cikgu sia!" HAHAA!
And you know whats the best thing?? The cubicle smell so nice when the came out. LOL. They we so scared till to the extent they sprayed perfume in the cubicle. AHAHA. It was like the classiest joke of the day!

Love,
Syira

2009-01-21T23:00:00.007+08:00

Gotta cut down on my shopping habit. Aiyayaii! I always buy things on impulse and end up not wearing it.

Is this goodbye?

2009-01-20T02:49:00.002+08:00

In the years to come
Will you think about these
moments that we shared

In THE years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different
dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it
hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'CAUSE true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things
we'll wish we'd never said

In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street
corner though it rains

Each and every end is always
written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

2009-01-19T00:35:00.000+08:00

Are there things that you wanted to say?

2009-01-19T00:30:00.001+08:00

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

Love,
Syira

Walk away.

2009-01-16T00:22:00.004+08:00

How do you feel now that im no longer in your life? Better? Great? I cant believe that you wanna throw everything away over such a small matter. I dont understand you.

2009-01-13T18:42:00.001+08:00

I could still remember how scary i was when i had to act as a ghost. Brrrrr. The neighbours living in the block were all freaked out when they saw me. I had to stand beside an ULU tree and all. A distant from the crews and casts. Furthermore, it was on a Thursday night. I didnt even dare to go home. I had to go to baby's place as his place is not as deserted as mine.

As we are not supposed to use our own classmates as casts, we had to lie to our lecturer that the ghost was actually my sister. But who would stupidly buy that. LOL

Love,
Syira

New song

2009-01-11T01:53:00.004+08:00

ehhhhhhhhhhhh...
I've just compososed a song but its just halfway through. LOL. Gonna finish it by tomorrow, maybe. Its not really that nice as i've not yet have the chord progression and the ending and MY VOIICEEEEE.. OMG, but here it is..

What about today?

2009-01-11T00:12:00.010+08:00

MARTINNNNNN

Tommy,dear :)

Lynn and me

Mary and me

Syidah and me

URGGGHHHH. Im soooo pissed. Dont ask.

Went to the cca fair today at junyuan. After that was supposed to go to the Tattoo Convection Show but we decided to just head somewhere else. So we decided to go to town to just window shop. And uggggggghhhh, i HAVE to get the gucci bag. So frigging nice! Ahahha, when people saw me just now, they were like.. "babe, where you wanna go? DISCO?" Lol. Cos my dress were all sparkly and all. LOL Retro, i like :)

We went to eat desserts at Swenswens. We met Mar, Lynn, Hart and Fina after that and went for sheesha. Lol, Fauzi Laily was there and everyone was like .. "ehhhhhhh! HOT NYEEERR" Okay, not trying to be mean but, is he? Anyways, headed home after that like no life. Aiyayyaii. So pissed off. I love you so much dear Tommy babyy :) Loves

Love,
Syira

Just bored

2009-01-10T01:02:00.002+08:00

I wonder what i spend all my money on. $750 gone in just 4 days. Bought some forever 21 dresses, boots, drinks. Aiayayaii. Well, met up with dear Syidah just now. Played with Darling and Martin. And Martin nearly shit on me! Ewww. Saw Kolin just now under his block meeting Fad to go to the Tattoo Convention Show. Seeing him reminds me of Irfan and Farhan.

I guess my conjecture was true afterall. They're just my friends. Not really say true friends. Just friends who are willing to stick by me for long but not forever. Friends who were TOO dear to me till my love for them was more to it than just friends. But at the end of the day, everyone was just back to the drawing board. Clueless and strangers. People changes. And so do i. Not the naive Syira i used to be no more. Oh well...

Im soooo frigging bored right now....

Love,
Syira

A new Chapter

2009-01-09T01:14:00.006+08:00

Night Safari :D

Ohh, i found these :)

Happy new year people! Though its rather too late :) Have been kept really occupied last summer. Well, gonna start blogging again. Changed my blogskin. First day of school was fun. Missed my girls. Hahhaa. When i entered class, everyone was like, "ehh, mac donalds mana?" LOL. Nahh, no time to explain what its about.

So moving on, i had "colon infection" aka stomach infection for a week now. And i think this is the worst. I've been going to and fro the hospital and have been hospitalized TWICE in a week already. Omg. Those dreaded needles and medicines. Really makes me wanna puke. I was at the end of my tether. I almost missed the world. When i was discharged, i was like a free bird. But when i get home, tears just roll down my cheeks. I knew i was in the 'cage' again. Haiz. Wanna go out but cant. Today, Tommy was sooo sweet. He dropped by after school and took me for a 10 mins walk. Bought some apples otw and he sent me home. Was still weak but the air outside made me stronger mentally.

Syidah and my classmates were all so sweet. Just now, they gave me a get well soon call. Each and everyone of them. So unexpected. Anyway, thanks alot guys :) Im feeling way way wayyyyy better now. So yeah. Thats all for today. And babbyyy, i love you sooo much. My colin stuart high strech boots has arrived! lol.

Love,
Syira

2008-11-10T03:46:00.001+08:00

Gonna get my belly pierced!!! :))

Love,
Syira

2008-11-03T13:58:00.001+08:00

A foolish boy met a foolish girl
And they let their simple love unfurl
He watched her with his eyes soft brown
Her hateful face always wore a frown

She ignored his gifts, his tears, his love
She, an angel, his peaceful dove
He was walking blindly into a doom
But those thoughts were never there to loom

He begged and pleaded for her to stay
On the day she sailed away
On a boat floating through the air
It looked as if she didn't care

But inside her, there was a voice
It spoke of how she had no choice
It spoke that love was there all along
She left to save him, he was wrong

For she was cursed always to defy
And her face had shown a lie
So their love could never be
But this was something, he could not see

He never knew what she'd done for him
And soon his eyes grew cold and dim
He felt nothing but eternal pain
Then sent a bullet through his brain

Love,
Syira

2008-10-12T02:03:00.002+08:00

After a longg break, finally im posting again. Hari raya have been great! Anyway, i know i should be appreciative but i only got like less than 200 bucks for duit raya and there's like soo many things i wanna buy. haizzzzz

NOTE: Im gonna braid my hair sooooooooooon! Like the model on top

Ohh, i went bowling with izzah. And while we were walking towards safra, a dog tried to 'EAT' me up. And its the first time i freaked out. LOL

Love,
Syira

2008-09-06T18:45:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wish there's trust between relations

Love,
Syira

2008-08-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

THE VALUE OF A WOMAN: Beautifully said; Be careful if u make a woman cry, because god counts her tears. A woman came out from a man's rib, not from his feet to be walked on and not from his sides to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved. This is the true value of waman.

Come to think of it, yes i do agree to that statement. But to overlook a man's heart and tears is also unfair. It's even more cruel to make a man cry because their tears don't fall easily. And to see a man cry infront of me, well, it pains my heart. Especially the man that i love. The sounds of his weeps could already make me cry, What about looking at his tears rolling down his cheeks procrastinately? It hurts me even more.

At the end of the day, life still sucks

Love,
Syira

2008-08-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday my love!

LOL. Soo unexpected today. After school, went home to take my passport and thought of buying the ferry tickets today. But aiyayyaii, soo expensive laa the hotels. So i think i'll just get it later :)

Anyway, Thomas brought me to starbucks on my birthday eve and i thought he was just meeting his friend. And i was surprised to see Irfan and Shahrul there. They got me a chocolate fudge muffin. And wrote me the 'tissue card' as well. It was a small celebration but i really appreciate it. It means alot to me.

Mummy wanna bring me to bali thai later for my birthday. Weeeee~! Loves.
And thanks for the wishes people :-)

Love,
Syira

2008-08-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

If only i have luscious body. Yummmmmmyyyy!

I envy those girls who have already made it to the peak. Get paid to sing, have recordings, have a stable future and a good sense of fashion. But one thing about me is that im determined but LAZY. Haiz.

Life calls for a saviour. But when opportunities are right in front of your eyes, you tend to misjudge it and thus, search further. I put in so much faith but i was already done long before. I threw away what was mine and got what i deserved. Maybe it's just sheer bad luck? Or is it karma?

Anyway, enough of the 'life' talk. Puasa is in a weeks time and i swear to you that im soo not ready for it. My appetite is coming back. And i dont know why but i'll definitely eat at every destination i went to. I'll just get hungry. Maybe my lil tummy just wanna enjoy whole loads of food first before fasting.

Im sooo cleaning my room right now. Its in such a mess. Haven't been tiding it up for a month i guess. Have been very busy with assignments. And i'll only enter my room when i wanna sleep or when i wanna get ready for school. Or maybe i don't go home at all. Im serious people. I know how disgusting i can get. Some of my clothes have not been washed for maybe a week or two. But obviously i don't wear them out and wait till it gets washed. Daddy has been pestering me like every single day to clean up my room.
LOL.

And i neeeed help. How to conquer your mental vexation? Seriously, i dint use to be like this. I used to just get pissed off or think of something happy or go out and have fun. But now, i just find it hard. I'll use harmful means and ways to calm myself down. Im going crazy. My stress level is already up to its maximum limit.

I neeed helppppppp!

Love,
Syira

2008-08-13T02:24:00.003+08:00

NOTE TO SELF:
If your man is really mean to you, DELETE HIM!

2008-08-13T01:32:00.003+08:00

BOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!

Guess what.. I FUCKING WASTED MY DAY AT HOME TODAY! Well, its normal actually. I've not been going out that much already. You can always find me at home. Thomas has not been asking me out that much lately. He's busy with school, gigs, new girlfriends and more. So yeah..

So i guess same goes to my birthday. Spending it at home, with family. Ahhhhhh.. miss them loads. They've been telling me this.. "Mama and Papa have been very happy with you lately. BUTTTT, its either you don't go out and stay home all day or you go out and don't go home at all till the next morning" LOL, Parents. But because of that, daddy gave me extra allowance :)

Anyhooo, now's 1.35 am and i wanna confess something. JUST now, 15 mins ago, something really bad and funny happened. I was lying on my bed and suddenly i had the urge of going to the toilet (needed to SHIEEETTT). I went into my kitchen and on all the lights. When i was about to enter my toilet, i saw a big lizard guarding the toilet door. I was petrified and hurriedly took the SHIELDTOX and sprayed it. It hid behind my mother's towel. I dint know what to do and was afraid to go near it. So i decided to do it the 'hard way'. I balanced my self on my sink and my washing machine just to get near it and without my legs on the floor (scared if it falls to the floor and run about).

Just when i was about to spray that damn bloody lizard, the sink broke!!!! Because i was too heavy. Like OMG!! 1.30AM IN THE MORNING!!! My brother and my parents was sleeping. The impact was sooo loud that it woke my family up. When they entered the kitchen, i was lying on the floor. Couldnt move. I think i injured my back. Boohooo.

Daddy was pissed. But ahhahahha. It was sooo damn hilarious. And when i stood up, i saw a lizard's tail right beside me. OMG! It just passed me. Ewww. I had goosebumps since just now. What a tragedy...

Love,
Syira

2008-08-12T00:22:00.001+08:00

First, i lost my identity, then my love ones, then my friends, then my band, now im losing my life.

Love,
Syira

2008-08-07T13:30:00.002+08:00

IM USELESS, IM A BIMBO, IM STUPID, IM JUST A CHEAP SLUT, IM GOOD FOR NOTHING, IM AN IDIOT, IM SLOW, IM A SCATTERBRAIN, IM IMMATURE AND IM FULL OF BULLSHITS.

Thanks. I know.
You'll know who im referring to.
Cos only you would call me these names.
And only you who thinks im nothing but a loser.
You're fucked up and you don't even know that.

Love,
Syira

2008-08-06T14:52:00.003+08:00

IM SOOOO SADDDD! I just lost my wallet :(
AND DONT ASK ME HOW, WHERE AND WHEN!
Booohooooo! Got all my important cards inside!
Especially my IDENTIFICATION CARD!!
And some money.

$150 gone just to make a new i/c.
Boohoooooooooooooo!

Love,
Syira

2008-08-05T13:42:00.002+08:00

Well, school's not easy to deal with. Aiyayyaii. Im too tired to go to school already. Lecture's in 2 hours time and im feeling too comfortable at home to even go. Sighh. Well, national day's coming and i still have no plans. Mummy asked me to help her out in Jyss for the party. Well, i think i'll just go this once. Sounds interesting. So my dear Tommy, MAKE YOURSELF FREE! No excuses!

I've been watching too many 'girl' movies lately. I think im turning paranoid about myself. In my mind right now, i've been asking myself; Am i fat? Is my hair okay? Should i buy more eye shadow colours? Should i get a new set of clothes for my wardrobe? Is my boobs to small?

LOL. Paranoia is killing me i tell you. Hahaha. Anyway, today i dreamt about Kye and Shah Rukh Khan. Hahahhaha. Baby, don't be jealous haaaaaaaaaa! Soo bored at home right now. Just feel like sleeping. BUUUUTTTTTTT... if i don't to school, someone will nag and nag at me. LOL. Right baby?

Hahaha. Okay, loves.

Love,
Syira

2008-08-03T03:52:00.000+08:00

I cried myself to sleep

2008-08-03T00:23:00.004+08:00

Life is not easy to live
When we dont have anything to give. (Well, that's what you claimed)
I think i`ll never have importance of financial wealth,
Only what matters to me and will ever be is emotional wealth

Just wonder what would happen if someone stole that
Because im not so bold and i don`t even have a hold to that
Well don't you think enough is enough?
When the history repeats itself,
And all you did was laugh

When everything seems to be turning a new point
Why does the past suddenly gets joint?
Tried so hard umpteen times to start afresh,
But what i end up with is just getting oppressed.

Its all the same..
Dont know when it will change.
Am i destined to be insane?
While holding on to so much pain

Love,
Syira

2008-08-02T22:48:00.002+08:00

Is love really a gift worth fighting for, or is that merely what we want to think? What if it turns out he was with some whore, and the relationship begins to sink? His gift of love is now a Trojan Horse. Attacking from the deep depths of my heart. Betrayal, like the flu, must run its course. Sinking in like the poison of a dart. But sometimes, love goes beyond extent till hurt and harm are being produced by someone.

But somehow its worth taking a slight chance. To hear those three simple words “I love you”. And feel his arms and hands around you. And when times get tough, he’s there to help you through. Would you risk bad for good? For me it’s an easy choice..I would :)

Being distant from someone is nothing compared to being distant from someone when it comes to the matter of the heart. Or shall i put it, "so far yet so near" I just wish that someday, i could turn back time and stop him from doing things which are making us unhappy right now. Why? Why must karma hit me back so hard? This fragile heart tears every night, thinking pessimistically about the outcome. Why does this heart feel so hurt over the slightest setback of this relationship? Words cant describe how low im feeling right now. Today, the rain slithered down my windows, encouraging a creeping melancholia.

I cant speak to him right now. I just cant. Too many things are hidden in my heart. I dont want sympathy. I dont want him to think that im doing this to get his attention. All i need is just him to be by my side. Everyday, i eclipse my sadness with a smile. But i dont wanna be pretentious over my feelings. I just wana be the happy 'me' that i used to be. But why is it so hard?

Love,
Syira